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Name: Kelsy
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 5/25/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: writing, editing, directing, spending as much time as possible with the best man in the whole wide world (R. Alburn Binkley III), friends, and family
Expertise: Film editing and fiction writing! Loving and being loved in return! Moving (I've lived in seven different places in LA within a year)!on the side: avoiding doing anything i don't enjoy and doing what makes me happy
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  socalkels
Member Since:
1/19/2004
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|  Oh Polly Pocket house! Oh my dream home! How cute! How quaint! How perfect! Your bedrooms so tiny, Your price yet so big! Has LA really changed me that much? Three years ago, when first I saw, I thought, how sad that one would have to live in a house so small! Today you seem perfect, just the right size! Alas, you're over four hundred grand! Anyone out there want to give me a hand? Perhaps to lend one grand, two or three? Can't you just picture me and the Polly Pocket house? How perfect we'll be!  There is a row of houses in Burbank that I have called the Polly Pocket homes since moving to LA three years ago. Since then, I've grown accustomed to the small houses in LA. One of the Polly Pocket homes has recently gone on sale. How perfect! I thought. It's meant to be! The owner is asking for 419,000 but open to negotiation. We're looking at other places, but the neighborhood is hard to beat. We'll see. And after that, we'd have to get 14,000 for a down payment.  Look at the comparison below to a Polly Pocket toy I used to play with:   (Grandmother's Cottage) Polly Pocket house on Zillow.com | | |
| I was editing a children's musical of "The Little Mermaid," so naturally the songs from the musical and Disney movie started to stick in my head. Soon, I began to think about some of the lyrics in "Part of Your World," and believed I had discovered one of the influences for my worldview.
I am a product of "The Little Mermaid" generation.
For example, the Little Mermaid sings:
"Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?"
This reference is obvious. Even with all her stuff, she didn't have enough, she still wanted more. I'm also a product of always getting presents at Christmas, Birthdays, Easter, Valentines Day, etc. As a little girl, I had more than enough toys to keep me busy (between my sister and I, we had 3 Little Mermaid Barbie dolls), yet I always asked for more and I believed I had every right to receive more toys.
"But who cares?
No big deal
I want more"
But what is the Little Mermaid longing for? Independence. Another thing growing up I never questioned my right to. Here's the lyrics that got me thinking:
"Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Proper women sick of swimmin'
Ready to stand"
Hearing this made me think of why I might have answered my father with "Why not?" when he would tell me, "The world doesn't revolve around you!" Just like the Little Mermaid I was Daddy's little girl and believed that entitled me to all the world had to offer: independence to make my own decisions, go where I wanted to go, do what I wanted to do and be anything I wanted to be.
Thanks to "The Little Mermaid", women of my generation grew up believing in their independence. Having a man (the prince, Eric, and wasn't he one of the cutest Disney princes, Ladies?) was just bonus and for some (or several) not even necessary or desired.
 In summation, I am a product of "The Little Mermaid" generation. I believe I can still be Daddy's Princess and live thousands of miles away independently doing my thing.
(Photo taken by Alburn Binkley, flickr.com/alburnbinkley ) ♫ | | |
| So, in attempt to find more direction in my life, I've been encouraged (by a friend) to have a personal mission statement. Does seeing and experiencing more of LA count? Or is that more of a New Year's Resolution (something I didn't even attempt do this year). Being Christian, "mission statement" carries with it a spiritual connotation. But does a personal mission statement necessarily have to be religious? Maybe I should have two mission statements. I'd perfer that much better to New Year's Resolutions. Much better. | | |
| I signed into Xanga today and a banner on every page reads, Welcome back! And I guess it's appropriate cause it has been awhile since I've last visited. My, how the design layout's changed, but what's up with the annoying ads every time I go back to my homepage? So, what's new? After not working for a month (mostly not by choice), I got a job through the temp agency: receptionist. Which I have a small amount of experience with, however I don't think I'll be getting any #1 receptionist awards any time soon. So it's good it's only temporary and I'm not trying to make a career out of it, cause I'm not that good. Looks like the WGA strike might be over, so I read. Hopefully that'll bring more industry related jobs my way. I feel very boring right now, as I have no exciting news to talk about. Hmmm, let's see. I learned how to make green and red enchiladas last night, in addition to spanish rice. That was fun. I've been feeling both anxious and confused of late. Confused about a number of things: my career, God, my place in God's will. Funny that the sermon on Sabbath was about the wilderness taken from the passage where Jesus is tempted in the desert. Funny that when it started I thought I wouldn't have anything to learn because of the numerous sermons I've heard on "the wilderness" but Pastor Ryan's message was very fresh and insightful. I prayed with him and afterwards he told me that he's been getting a lot of calls lately requesting prayer and thought the passage (picked months in advance) was very apropos for this week. At least I know I'm not alone. I've been feeling anxious I suppose about the same things: my career, God's will. Also, although I suppose antsy is a better word, about a new stage of life. You probably know well that last year, '06, I moved five times. All in LA, but each time a new area and, for the most part, new roommates. In March I will have lived in the same place for a year. Maybe it's my sense of adventure, but I'm ready for something new. On one hand I hate change, but on the other I crave it. The entertainment industry is like that, nothing is certain. And while I hate not having a steady job, I like that every month or two there are new faces, new challenges, new environment, new responsibilities and it's all in the realm of what I have a passion for (now if I can just start getting those jobs again...). Anyway, maybe because that's how my career path plays out or maybe because I'm not in the that particular work environment at the moment, I want a change in my personal life. So I'm antsy, bored, looking for something new. And yes, anxious, always anxious about what that change will be. | | |
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